i wanna go shopping,
like, BADLY.
no idea why,
but my cupboard seems full with clothes and all
yet it doesnt feel enough.
CNY's jus around the corner!
and whoa,
damn early this year haha.
ANGPAOS, WAIT FOR ME AH.
and well,
so many things have been happening within the past week,
i seriously dont know how to start.
haha..

but, thanks to giddy for listening and haha,
dont get sick again la.
your opinions and suggestions were jus priceless
and im really trying to make boyfriend and i work out better now.
and omg how shockingly alike lives we lead too.
haha you too dont stress and continue to love her like always.
COS RFL YOU ROCK. (:

and thanks to lyn for offering to help and all that jus now,
and know what?
those hugs were jus what i needed to perk me up for the rest of the day haha.

and to amos and hakim and amanda and ashely and yuting too,
dont stress k?
loves from me to you guys!

oh and sherwin, for listening too haha.
though it was jus for a while,
but at least i could feel better jus for a little while (:
sorry i didnt fill you in earlier though,
but haha, it'd be weird if i were to tell you like that.
well, that's what i think, heh.

and last but not least,
apologies to the boyfriend,
for making you worry so much.
but really,
it's not time for me to give you an answer yet,
and i really cant promise you anything.
i know it's better if we settle this quickly
so that there wont be much for us to fret about anymore.
but, i dont want to have to come out with an answer too quickly
without any further hesitations and considerations,
then regret it at the end of the day.
it's something important that i think would enrich my life,
and maybe both of us would turn out stronger than usual.
we both have our reasons for defending our stands,
but i really want you to try and understand.
i understand your stand in this whole mess,
but i really think that we could still work out fine,
jus a bit crumbly at times.
well i hope all that did make sense,
and please dont start saying stuff like,
"whatever la, you like then go do" or others similar to that.
i'll jus get very crushed.
and you know/have a feeling that if you were to continue
brainwashing me,
i'll still give in to you.
but, i really cant be soft this time,
so please stop your brainwashing,
i might jus explode.
but, i love you still.
and hope you'd get well soon
and be able to get your long-awaited driving license real quick! ^^

im finally done with my cd cover + insert thing.
taipang says can print alr.
so happy,
that's why im blogging now haha.
working on redbull now though,
and sighs,
i dont know how to make it better =/

and i realised that i cant take long naps anytime in the day,
cos i'll feel like im sick when i wake up
and have no appetite and all.
man it sucks.
but, ahh the nap was great nevertheless.
so much so cos im able to work better and more efficiently now,
compared to yesterday night.
haha.

all of a sudden im so nervous for this sunday cos,
i dont know, im afraid i might not be able to sustain well
on that absurdly choppy waters at kallang.
the distance is not a big problem,
but the water is.
hopefully the water would be calm on the race day itself.
hmm.

sometimes some stuff are just too overwhelming to take.
but, we still have to overcome them and survive it all.
maybe that's why people like me think that life actually sucks to a certain extent,
and that life is unfair and whatnot.
i hope we can pull thru this period,
with the exam stress piling up on you
and all the submissions every end-of-the-block for two more months.
oh and also including all the days that we couldnt meet up
for one reason or another.
and dont be sad anymore,
i dont want to have to see the both of us so down and out all the time.
love you dude.