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chrystal
seventeen, and a long way to eighteen
mahabodhi-an from '97 to'02
damai-an from '03 to '06
currently in TEMASEK DESIGN SCHOOL'S VSC :D
netballer
CANOEIST!
swimmer!
trainee lifeguard.
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depression.
i blogged on Thursday, March 30, 2006

im so sick of everything.
so sorry guys.
wanted to support you all but made things worst.
im a total failure, sucked.
jus wanna say sorry.
i'll try again,
but i know i'll nvr be myself.
dunnnnnnoooooooooo.

the chrystal who played netball has long gone.

im so under pressure.
dont know wad's the cause.
but jus under pressure.
i suck suck suck suck.
hate myself for demoralizing myself.
arghhh.

"...i cry silently, i cry inside of me.
i cry hopelessly, cos i know i'll nv
be myself again..."

im scared...
and im the prey of everything evil and bad.

chrystal's confidence has left her body and soul,
never coming back..

i hate this.

cant find where i belong.

booooooooo?
i blogged on Monday, March 20, 2006

im drowning,
and it's so cold in this darkness.
lolz.
the funny thing is,
i can swim,
yet not outta this.


wth.
im like so into dis lah.
jus cause a fren says dis,
doesnt mean you are really wad he says.
SO LAME.


diao diao diao.
im talkin to myself again.
siannnnnnn.

btw, am i that sarcastic as you say i am?
dunnooo lahh..
but all also picked up from everyone ard me.
WHAT YOU WANT?
lol. jkjk. =P


anyways,
i've watched dorm.
so cool lor.
not as scary though.
VICHIEN!!
hahahahhh.
also watched final destination 3.
so damn nice!
gory and disgusting. UGH!
but it's still nice. =)
and thrilling.


hmmm..
well.
all i have left to write is..
recently alot of things happened.
not easy to explain what
and how it actually feels like.
and difficult to tell from right and wrong
when you're so stuck in the middle.
no one would listen,
neither would anyone understand.
hahahahahhh.
dis is being stubborn yeah,
but, i dont know what else i can do.
escapin is not the way.
but only myself can save me from this shit.
haiyahhh..
frens come to me,
i also dont know how to help
and wad to do to make them feel better.
am i dat useless?

man.
just let me drown in this
pool of wonderful and loud music.
hope we'll all be alright. =)


oh yeh!
all the best to us in the national rounds.
damai netball rocks.
love you guys cos you make my life complete. x)

hahah. nothin much.
i blogged on Wednesday, March 08, 2006

well..
happy for the c girls
who came in third in the east zones.
and nervous for tomorrow's game
with tkgs.
in bedok stadium some more!
dunoo if would play anot tmw..
but hope to!
and all the best to our fantastic team!
love y'all. =)




a product of our dear esther! copyrighted. lllllll
wahahahaahhh.
and to gao,
be more serious in your studies!
but this is definitely one of the best jokes ever. xD
look forward to goin to bintan with you guys!!!
_________rock on.

i blogged on Sunday, March 05, 2006

still so tired lahh...
jus went bugis street to find bags.
couldn find khaki coloured one for ying
and couldn find any that i like.
LOL. im so fussy. =D

anyways.
finally finished some of my homework.
budden tmw got 2 tests
and havent really studied. =P
im so dead can.

anyways,
tmw's the semi's liao.
with st hilda's again.
all the best to us. =)


by the way..
i've cut my hair. =D
but it's freakin short.
LOL. can spike!

there's alot of things happenin around too.
don think can take the pressure.
no use in writing them all here too.
hahahahahahh.
im still crazy..

everyone wins with teamwork. GO DAMAI!