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cycled for almost the whole of today
and im not really tired yet.
haha weird?
i guess so cos im supposed
to be super exhausted and
lying in bed asleep already.
hehehe.
i keep wondering about the worse that could happen,
i mean, why not?
if you dont expect them,
then you're bound to break down
and then be unable to recover from it
after a long long long long time.
well that's what i think, you?
haha.
so so so...
what would happen if i had an accident today?
would i get to see tomorrow?
would i ever get to see my family and friends again?
would i get to pick up my materials and make art pieces come alive again?
would i get to canoe, or even capsize then get forced to eat veggie again?
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please add yer own thoughts here.
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im probably gonna edit this post another time,
cos...
i think my sister probably thinks im some super maths machine;
i freaking solved about ten outta fiftyforty eight questions
(YES i had to look through the whole
maths practice paper for BLANKS) for her
in less than twenty minutes lah wtf.
and im still solving one of them
while typing away happily here,
and of course complaining lol.
and now she gets to go sleep
while i have another two questions to go?
not fair,
it's not like this is my homework you know =/
and this is the first time i actually
took so long to post a blogpost -.-
i dreamt that i had a camera
which was able to capture anything i wanted.
man did i love it (:
hope for one? yea i really do.
rowed seven rounds continuosly today,
without capsizing, FINALLY! :D
was very happy after that,
and really hope that i would never capsize,
while rowing, ever again (:
a lot is expected,
but i probably cant do it
with school and everything else obstructing my way.
maybe im just afraid,
or have no confidence in myself,
i dont know...
aaack okay enough of canoe (:
going to est's place tomorrow evening for a bbq
with her church mates, wee!
been so long since i last saw her, haha.
Only Hope, OST of "A Walk to Remember", by Mandy Moore.
love the song,
especially the melody of the chorus
for it's just so... lovely (:
`so, I lay my head back down.
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
i know now you're my only hope...
hey i didnt die out at sea today!
weeee.
honestly,
i wasnt as tired after rowing at changi/ubin today,
compared to last friday.
dunno why,
probably cos i've already experienced
how it'll all be like?
the team seemed to have loads of fun,
of course we dont enjoy the constant shouting by coach,
but still,
riding the waves and rowing
our guts out with everyone else
was abolutely uber-enjoyable.
hahaha.
plus the picnic-ing out at sea during 'raft up' was cute :D
couldnt go to ubin with the guys next week though;
coach's only bringing the guys,
said that he wanted them to pick up more speed,
which means it'll all be tougher.
the rest cant go ):
and my school's starting already )):
mooncake festival's today,
and lol, zhenyu's aunt's hand made mooncakes
were fantabulous,
except that they suffered too much under the hot sun
and became nua when we ate them.
but, :D nice nice.
`somewhere over the rainbow,
way up high,
there's a place that i heard of once
in a lullaby...
(:
bought new havaianas xD
had lunch together with most of my team mates
at tampines' cafe cartel :D
walked around town with them too :D
went rowing and enjoyed it pretty much (i guess) :)
had a two hour long lecture by coach o.o
went blog-hopping a while ago, lol
feeling kinda bored right now =/
... and yup, that's a very short summary of what i did.
i wanted to write a compo here,
jus a thought from this morning.
but on second thought,
what the hell am i going to write on?
sighs.
shall jus let any story come into my head then.
hahaha.
the day which i sorta dreaded is arriving
in what, fifty minutes time?
going round ubin tomorrow morning.
look forward to it
cos most of us will be going
and i wont be the only girl there again :D
not really looking forward to it
cos it'll definitely be very exhausting
and i'll probably die out at sea.
aack why's chrys always thinking about dying anyways?
i dunno.
maybe cos im too exhausted recently,
and there's jus too many unnatural deaths
occurring among sports people these days.
aw man.
school's starting in less than a weeks time already,
oh man.
i'd wanted to catch up with sleep more,
but i think i cant now...
not that i cant,
but i always lose track of time
while online, lol.
so stupid luh anyway.
and oh, before i go,
happy birthday in advance to sweet vivian
who's 15th birthday falls on the 25th of September,
jus 45 mins away now (:
aight, off to bed now, shoo!
has anyone thought of how it'd be like
if we humans were as small as, let's say..
a fingernail or a pinky?
haha and the world
and everything else would be
HUGE AND GIGANTIC.
oh man that'd be freaking cool!
i wouldnt mind being tiny for a day,
so i can jus fret over how im supposed
to move from my huge bed
to everywhere else.
probably one piece of 'snowflakes'
would be enough to keep me full the whole morning,
and another 2 'honey stars' would be my lunch,
then then hmmm.
i dunno what would be dinner,
cos i cant possibly jus have cereal for the whole day lol.
hmmm then i'll probably take one whole day to
walk from my bed to the bathroom,
then to the kitchen,
then to the living room to slack,
then back into this room to jump on the keyboard to type :D
hhahahah that would be so much funnnnnn!
the music coming from the speakers would probably
blow me away too, whoa.
okay this is going nowhere,
im like fantasizing crazily,
for this is like totally impossible.
but it sure is fun to think about :D
rowing round one third of ubin is sick;
i almost cried halfway through
cos i was too angry with myself
for not rowing fast enough
and for not being to row straight
cos of the disturbances from the waves,
and apparently i cant focus.
rowing round the whole of ubin next tuesday.
im SO NOT looking forward to it,
cos i'll probably jus die out at sea
without anyone knowing.
i can see it,
HEADLINE NEWS:
POLY STUDENT MISSING AFTER CANOEING ROUND UBIN.
zzz
i might be down but i dont look so.
i might look down but i might not be so (;
thanks for your concern but im fine,
and i will shall be.
goodnight world.
i bet some bus drivers are deaf
or seriously have a bad attitude
towards their passengers
and they need therapy real quick zzz
okay so i had a really suay morning,
but im in no mood to get into the details
and get so pissed off again. (;
going to changi tomorrow.
nope, not to find what's famous there,
be it nasi lemak or *ahem,
but to have training.
since it's pretty last minute,
we'll probably have to spend money to rent boats?
aw man.
why does this have to happen
the day after i jus contributed 2.50
to the canoe fund? crap.
cant wait to go ubin next week :D
oh oh jus met up with some of my classmates
at cine and caught the movie,
No Reservations.
man it's cool,
and super sweeeeet.
hahaha things like that
might never be true though,
cos it's like...
too perfect to be true.
but hmmm,
maybe that's only what i think.
shrugs.
but AYEEEE,
it's a delicious and appetising show, seriously.
thumbs up :D
catherine zeta-jones is totally HOT too x)
the guy lead was sexy too,
not the really really handsome kind,
but his role in the movie was plain sweet and sexy.
ahahahah!
and and thanks bro!
for getting the donuts
from donut factory.
after earning so much from this job
that sarah and i cant do -.-
okies nevermind,
who ask ourselves to be bornt so late?
hahaha.
playing monopoly for half an hour with gaoxiang
was EXTREMELY FUN,
and yes, retarded too, no doubt.
lololololololol.
well, nothing much to blog about seriously.
inspirations came and left without a trace,
so what-the-hell. zzz
now i cant wait for cafe cartel on monday,
lol.
sarah's like super excited,
much MUCH more excited than me yeap.
haha and we're probably
going down to jurong this saturday?
aw yol, dont be jealous k, hehe.
you can come if you want!
i guess (:
training tomorrow,
plus cycle to school? :D
freaking exhausting but ah,
who cares? (;
obviously im bored,
so here's the second post of the day.
weeeeee.
training everyday is crazy,
but im bored!
i cant help it.
gym tomorrow then go get slips,
canoe and swim on thursday,
canoe and gym on friday again,
canoe on saturday too?
im NUTS.
oh and agreeing with wenhao,
i cant wait to visit jurong swimming complex!
yes i havent been there before, so?
but let's all wait till
all of us can go then we shall have fun the whole day k? :D
im not really happy today too,
may look like i am but nope (:
why i dunno.
and why am i saying this, i dunno.
why do we have emotions anyway?
okay this is stupid -.-
well then, what's our reason for living?
dont tell me bring happiness to people
and all that shit.
we have to find out ourselves, dont we?
well, i cant, can YOU?
why?
i dont quite believe in a lot of things,
like fate,
though i still go along with them
i dunno why.
why?
somebody tell me?
and why's life so unfair?
for those who are intelligent and talented
always have some bad stuff occuring to them,
either that or they have too much obstacles obstructing them.
nobody's perfect,
i wonder why?
lololololololol
that's a lot of whys in a short paragraph of some sort.
there's more,
but i cant make them out into words,
why i dunno again.
im probably short on words
and stuff.
too bad for me then =/
im peeling badly, sunburnt, YUCK.
ciao :|
haha here are some photos i came across
jus now, all from the desktop.
these were from...
i dunno, some time ago?
haha when all of us when for steamboat
to celebrate pristime's birthday.
means..
they were take in may??!
goodnesssssss.
love em to bitssss :P
super tired, really, SERIOUSLY.
needs more sleep, much much much more.
shrugs.
jus had sakae buffet this afternoon,
with ying and yol,
from three to five thirty okay!
had gym early in the morning
and apparently we were lazy
so wenhao and i didnt go swimming in the end.
after training tomorrow then :D
finished a drawing for mum
yesterday night,
havent been drawing much,
so hope this works (:
and now pengghee aka mother,
also wants a mickey mouse -.-
i wanna learn how to make blogskins :D
i wanna earn some more monay!
i wanna go play pool (:
i wanna go to jurong swimming complex with my canoe mates soon!
i wanna have a chalet with the usuals soon too (:
i wanna wish xiaoru all the best for her sups
and for her to smile more once again :D
i wanna get new havaianas ((:
i wanna rid myself of all the sunburnts =/
i wanna rid myself of the eyebags ):
i wanna sleeeeeeeep moreeeeeee.
i wanna be faster and faster and FASTER.
i wanna be anything but ordinary x)
okay that should be enough, for now, hehe.
or maybe theres more? (;
obviously im irritated by the imemm thing,
so i deleted it, yay :P
well...
coach really didnt make our day today,
neither did the weather i guess?
only rowed for half an hour
and a huge shower started,
so we couldnt practice our Ks jus now.
but our new paddles came in,
so it's one good thing that had happened today?
then coach forced brother and i to eat vegetables.
like wtf?
we hate hate HATE vege,
okay for me maybe not for certain types..
BUT,
he ruined our appetite for the day.
i dont even feel like having full dinner jus now..
and my tastebuds keep reminiscing the vege taste,
and it seriously sucks.
sighs, but we still cant blame him luh,
he's worried for our well-being after all,
and the whole team's like his kids, haha.
still rather exhausted, so didnt go for gym
after the rain and horrible lunch.
supposed to be sleeping
but i have no idea why im still typing away here?
hahahahahahaha.
i cant help it i guess.
been stoning most of the time after washing up,
like jus drained of all energy and mood.
i dont know why,
and i didnt want myself to be this way,
nor ask to be this way.
mood swings are really terrible sometimes,
and nobody would EVER know how im feeling (:
it's not something nice to be proud of either,
so that smiley was sarcastic (:
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i wanna fly,
fly high up into the sky,
and search for serenity and freedom.
i wanna run,
run fast and faster,
so that everything i dont like can jus go by like a gust of wind.
i wanna swim,
swim and glide underwater,
where most of the time i could really relax with all the fluid around me.
i wanna breathe,
breathe deeply and slowly,
in ensurance that my heart wont stop just yet,
and to know that i truly exist in this world.
i wanna search,
search high and low,
search for someone to hold in my arms,
and take my hands then take my breath away...
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im cold. brrr...
oh oh and here's something i came across yesterday..
it's like telling me,
"thank you for being considerate
by throwing your cigarette butt in here".
okay i know it's not clear and all,
but i dont have a proper camera,
how? haha...
right am now attacked by a bad headache again.
ciao.
i am
thinking,
jus thinking,
and thinking ?
thinking
about things that wont/might not happen
about impossible stuff, well, to me
about fairytales and why they all have such nice endings
about all the good things
about all the bad things
about why the hell im typing this post this way.
about all kinds of 'what-if's.
thinking
is interesting...
to a certain extent.
it's not good for me i know,
cos thinking too much makes me depressed.
but i cant help it (:
what if i died tomorrow?
what if i never woke up from my sleep?
what if i cannot last tomorrow's training and faint?
what if
what if
what if
what if i REALLY COULDNT FIND MY THUMBDRIVE TOMORROW?
shrugs.
but i wont kill myself (:
or will i?
LATER TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL FOR THIS SEM YAYYY.
finally finished my postcards :D
but screwed up one of them,
end up i cant finish up doing a proper packaging.
and also cant burn my cd for submission
cos my indesign files are in my thumbdrive
and i LEFT IT IN XOREX
this afternoon.
omgoodness im so darn careless...
probably cos of the huge rush =/
yeap, most definitely :(
anyways, im happy!
cos i finally finished my assignment (:
somehow sad cos we'll be changing classes in next sem =/
happy still cos i can meet new people,
unhappy still cos i wont be able
to hang out with my mates as much as right now
(even though we dont really spend much time tog,
lol, BUT STILL).
man i'll definitely miss them (:
ahh im very tired seriously;
lack of sleep,
keep chionging trainings,
been trying to rush my postcards,
and occupying myself a lot...
hope i can recover asap during the two weeks' break (:
oh and some of us tried
mixing mentos with coke today, lol.
seriously fun,
but we closed the bottle so it wasnt able
to explode as expected hahhahah.
so funny wenhao slammed it on the ground
and the bottle cap broke a bit,
spewing out coke and foam.
HAHAHAHHAHA.
then he injured himself after getting chased by brother -.-
lol funfunfun (:
here comes the days of nonstop fun and enjoyment!
well okay, only for two weeks or so (:
well here's something i saw
from one of my posts
from long long ago:
we're only human and sometimes we make mistakes.
always bear in mind
that we should never lose hope
and stop dead in our tracks.
we have to accept these mistakes,
pick ourselves up,
learn from them and move on,
never attemting to make the same mistakes again.
im happier again today after reading it (:
know what?
i realised that i cant take long naps,
cos i'll feel like im sick and everything
and feel even more like sleeping =/
like jus now:
came home, had dinner,
turned on jo, felt sleepy,
went to sleep,
woke up an hour later,
and ahhh,
i feel like sleeping somemore.
and somehow i thought
it was the next day already, lol.
doing work now,
stomach feels like it's filled with too much water?
weird.
jus finished a small bowl of honeystars,
and a pack of 'cookie crisp' thing;
think i really use up energy very quickly o.o
usuals were here last night (:
had steamboat and after which
some stayed overnight.
played monopoly till what,
seven am??
well, close.
finished work at 3 to 4 plus in the morning,
so went to sleep for a bit.
but it felt like i havent slept at all. xx
almost fell asleep while yongkin was teaching
in class too,
and also at mensa while the guys were eating.
boo, chrys is tired.
`i really really reeeally feel like sleeping, please?
`nah, finish up this rough postcard first,
at least have the skeletons and colours.
`okie dokies (:
sometimes i jus wished that time would slow down,
or we could have like 30 hours everyday? dunno.
so that i could squeeze more stuff to do
and could sleep more xx
okay, this is stupid,
fancy knowing that this wouldnt happen
and yet still lying to myself.
and im supposed to manage my time better,
not neglect my sleeping time
and torture myself
time after time.
3 down, 3 more to go!
go go GOOOOOO!
ciaos /:
yay,
changed the layout by a bit,
hope it works.
been up since nine?
do work do work do work.
but chrys is tired,
still very very tired.
and chrys wants to finish up her work fast.
she's only finished, what,
TWO outta SIX postcards??!
zomgoodness.
oh and wtf is wrong with the imeem player -.-
it's like, only playing thirty seconds of each song.
zzzzzz,
and i dunno how to fix it. xx
and and i feel stupid for reading the time correctly
but processing it wrongly,
yet again.
wenhao and the rest went for gym,
probably around 4.30 to 5.
and i msged him, asking exactly when they were meeting,
at 5, thinking that it was still 4 or sth
and that i still had time -_-
omg chrystal what's wrong with you?
LOLOLOLOLOLOL.
happy new year to me then,
cos not going to gym today
means i'll have to rush training like mad tomorrow,
cos the usuals are coming over to my place
to celebrate van and kel's birthday.
and what are we gonna have?
steamboat :D
means many many things to settle,
ahhhhhhhhh, DIE.
lol okay the 'ahhh' part was exaggerating,
it wouldnt be that bad,
would it? o.o
BAH.
bored?
yea.
why?
HELLO, been doing work for 2 hours plus.
but at least the music's keeping me going (:
~let there be loveeeee...
in pain?
well, sort of; like a burnt bakua now?
lolololololol.
most of the others are burnt too i suppose?
most definitely caused by the 37degrees sun on friday, zzz.
right i shall stop talking to myself, lol.
wellllllllllll,
had training today,
play, row, play, row, talk, crap, crap,
laugh, laugh, laugh some more. LOL.
pretty fun today i guess,
though most of us were starving by the end of everything.
hahahahha.
and i dunno why im so tired?
fell asleep very quickly right after dinner
while my family and i were on the way home.
LOL.
lessee what else was interesting today..
OH the guys found a super cool spider!
it seemed to have huge pincer things
and is very preeeetty.
who said girls can adore spiders too? (;
AND AND AND samantha has caught my 'lol-ing' virus!
bwahahahhhaha!
yolanda also caught it the other day, lol.
this is so fun :P
UHM UHM oh and i saw hweeching, aka chinchow,
at the reservoir this afternoon!
yayness, it's been so longggg (:
she didnt change much,
neither did i, i suppose?
hahahahaha.
anyway, here's hoping she'd be well
and can get more rest!
her eyes were so panda-like, zomg,
probably due to insufficient rest and all.
im bored,
and i wanna finish up my assignment quickly and nicely.
im probably not cut out for designing on computer programmes;
i take so freaking long and seldon get what i'd expected! =/
i'll jus have to practice more i guess...
going for training tomorrow?
steph did ask you to try to go you know (:
haha okay, i'll try (;
aight, ciao (:
..these are who i spoke to today:
yolande;
lol, funny lah.
she woke up at 12 plus close to one
when i woke up at 9?
were supposed to meet at 2 and she was late.
hahahaha.
still 'i is-ing' a lot throughout;
we cant help it!
and LOL-ed a lot too.
crapped, slacked, shared ice cream,
talked, conversed, suan-ed,
teased, shared apple strudel with, etc etc. :D
esther;
another one who woke up at 12 plus.
lmao, im so jealous i get to sleep lesser than them.
was with dalton and funny lame friend
(who sat under the hot sun
eating mac's ice cream -.- ,
girls stared at him thinking he was nuts!
well, probably. lol. )
also crapped, slacked, shared ice cream with,
talked, conversed, suan-ed
teased, shared apple strudel with, etc etc :D
gaoxiang;
super lame as usual.
'i is' all the way.
talked like how he used to in secondary school -_-
still super lame.
kept teasing us,
kept trying to pinch sam's nips -_-
kept trying to irritate us lol.
but we're used to it lah :D
crapped, slacked, shared ice cream with,
talked, conversed, suan-ed,
teased, punched,
shared apple strudel with, etc etc. LOL.
samuel;
another lame dude.
came late after playing soccer at kallang lol.
decided not to be like yuanchong
who wore skinnies to soccer
then to steamboat LOL,
so wore berms instead.
wanted underwear for next yr's presents o.o
stated that, 'i want hush puppies one,
not bad.' then went, 'hehe.' -.-
lmao.
same thing,
crapped, slacked, talked,
conversed, suan-ed, teased,
punched, shared apple strudel with, etc etc. haha!
vanessa;
on the phone, not face to face lol.
asked her bout friday,
but she needs to see her lawyer.
o.o wtf for??!
oh her case on the accident not settled yet.
how efficient can this get?
*shakes head in disappointment.
lol so we settled on monday night instead,
my place! (:
conversed with for a bit, haha. (:
colin;
yea saw him at the shop at the cathay.
i bet he missed me lah! :P
so he commented that i am black,
but no! he is white,
so cant blame me for looking black
when im beside him LOL.
and why cant i join canoe?
eh i love sports lah uncle.
and i asked for pay rise,
he replied, 'slap your face.. blah.'
what the hell, lol.
i'll probably go back to work?
no idea.
but i want higher pay...!
jinmin;
through sms and online coversations, counted?
hahahha.
crapped, talked, conversed,
teased, etc etc. lol.
he's really nice to talk to lah,
like veh good friend wor!
*acts twit. O.O
(obviously i cant remember exactly
what we talked about,
that's why this portion is.so.short. HA.)
amos;
online counted too lah hor? heh.
he's like so blur to have entered the wrong
password for the wireless thing
then couldnt go online using vanessa.
LMAO.
crapped, talked, conversed,
tried to make deals
(you help me, and i'll help you back those kind, lol),
etc etc. haha funny.
damien;
online too, and he's always online -.-
apparently he's bored so he IM-ed me, lol.
and said that he was having a stomachache?
cos of the antibiotics he took for his foot
has this infection thing.
and he went to sleep early, VERY early.
im so jealous =/
mum;
of course i'd talk to her lah -.-
there's definitely something to say to our mums ;D
dad too?;
yea, well, jus called him, 'daddy'
like what i always do when he comes home.
then you hear him say, 'sleep earlier ah'
in chinese after he bathes and before he closes
his bedroom door.
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that's all?
i guess.
was home most of the time doing work anyway.
oh my laptop's named johan,
jo for short.
finally settled for a name after so long,
lolololololol but this sure is fun.
havent finished my postcards,
havent had enough sleep for days,
havent had a proper dinner jus now? ,
havent wished mum and dad goodnight,
havent thought of what to wear tomorrow.
lol and there's so many other things i've yet to mention.
right,
i really needa sleep.
ciao.
i is so tired o.o
lol yea, caught the 'i is'-ing virus too,
and i cant help but use it
cos it's funny :D
so totally exhausted after the peer leaders' camp.
it's fun and all,
jus a bit draggy and boring here and there.
walked for like three hours in tiong bahru,
then played around the playground
looking like funny old kids.
rode a bicycle in ubin for the whole afternoon yesterday;
i swear it's seriously crazy having to cycle
and climb up the steep slopes and all,
but after the slope upwards,
there will always be a slope downwards,
so... weeee!
overall,
we were all worn out after the two days in camp.
so tired we could even fall asleep
on the bumpboats (is that what's it called?)
on the way back to mainland sg,
and sleep soundly within minutes on a stinky bus.
well, i almost fell asleep while typing this too lol.
this was taken at the playgrpund in tiong bahru (:
and another retarded one hahahaha.
right,
i cant wait for hols to come still,
despite the fact that it's only two weeks long :P