i wonder how is it like being deaf sometimes
(no offense to those who're audibly handicapped)...

the other day i was jus listening to some songs
playing from jinmin's phone,
and i tried to play it as loud as my ears could take
and making sure that i couldnt hear a thing
coming from the environment i was in.
what happened right immediately was so cool that
idk how to explain it.
i mean,
imagine looking at people laughing around you,
talking around you,
and stuff like that
and yet you cant hear a thing from them.
i thought that it was kind of amusing
and started smiling to myself.
and when nobody noticed at all
(apparently they were busy laughing among themselves,
and idk why since i cant hear anything),
i realized how it is like to have nobody around you,
no sounds/noises around you,
nothing around you.
i was drained of all emotions in that instance,
feeling sad and jus so lonely.
keeping a smile on my face was an easy task though,
so nobody knew if anything happened to me, HA (:

so yea,
what if i just became deaf all of a sudden
for no rhyme or reason?

^^

cant find the words to describe how much i feel for you
cos you make me feel ever so real (: