I SWEAR,
i am so going to fly to Europe and like comb the whole continent,
so here's hoping that all the pretty pretty
architecture and stuff dont all erode away before i can get there.
i am so going to earn huge big bucks so that
not only i can have SUPER good life,
my friends and family too, not forgetting you :D
then then then i can like fly to ANYWHERE i want
for SO LONGGGGG that i get homesick.
i know im dreaming,
BUT EH,
i really really really really want to la.
i mean like,
WHO DOESNT?

boooo,
though i dont wanna grow up so/too fast,
i really really cant wait to see how my future is like.
somebody please build a time-machine please?
i know it's not exactly possible to manipulate the what,
space-time continuum,
but i really really hope it's possible,
haha.

oh and i dreamt that i smoked,
again for the third time.
first was about myself getting a cig outta the box,
but then i changed my mind and placed it back.
probably thought that i didnt wanna waste it yet?
second was about myself having one,
i lit it, putting it into my lips,
then i woke up,
without even feeling how it's like to have the cig at my mouth.
third time, i took the cig out,
lit it like as if i've done it a million times,
placed it into my mouth and sucked in the thick tobacco.
funny that i could actually feel and smell how's it like in a dream.
i could feel the tobacco and nicotine flooding into my mouth,
then i was actually deciding of whether to suck the gas into my lungs.
i think i did in the end,
and i didnt cough,
though i thought i would cos it's my first time,
or okay maybe not cos it's in a dream.
then, it felt okay,
jus like that.
as i've said,
it felt as though i'd done it a million times.
i dont know why i keep getting these kinda things,
also not as if i hang out with smoking friends everyday 24/7.
rawr nevermind.

well, sometimes i think i fantasize too much,
oh well.