i am happy,
not so,
and moody.

happy cos i am finally DONE WITH 2D art fundamentals,
happy cos i jus watched "devil wears prada"
and thought it was so good it blew me away,
happy cos i can finally sleep more,
train more, and work on d&d more,
happy cos i am gonna watch this show thing at jin's tomorrow,
happy cos i GOT INTO OTC WITH AMOS ISSAC AND ANGIEEEEEEEE :D
and of course many many others (:
happy cos i got myself a new pair of knee height pants,
happy cos it's the holidays i guess.

not so happy cos i didnt think that my painting was very good,
not good enough at least,
not so happy cos i still have to work on d&d yet nothing much is coming outta me,
not so happy cos i'll be missing my friends throughout the hols,
not so happy cos i think i'll be spending more than ever cos it's the hols,
not so happy cos im feeling rather cold?

kinda moody cos i feel useless for i cant think of anything for the d&d thing,
kinda moody cos im rowing pretty slowly today,
or maybe not cos we were rowing with the guys?
kinda moody cos i still feel very useless and hopeless and pathetic...

idk lah,
i dont get why others can manage their time so well
and still manage to have so many bright ideas while i cant.
the look on amos's face this morning seemed to be of disappointment
cos i havent got anything good to show him.
became damn moody after that
and even almost caused even more trouble cos of my moodiness.
okay maybe cos i've been drowning myself in self pity
for i have "so many work to do in so little time",
that's why i got blocked out and nothing good could come out from me.
but i dont know,
i hope i can do well,
i hope i can do better.
i hope for the best now and hope i dont screw this up
or disappoint anybody again.

i hope hoping works,
and of course hard work and effort.

anyways, here's the painting.
not really proud of it,
but i did put in pretty much effort (: