so many things going on,
so little time to spare to tend to every issue,
so limited amount of energy to spare for entertainment,
so unnoticeable a smile to smile all the troubles away everyday,
so want to lay down and rest without worry
but no, i cant do it,
for that wouldn't be me anymore.
i care and sometimes care too much,
listen and comfort a bit too much,
such that sometimes people think
that i don't have,
or maybe would never have troubles,
of my own,
cos i can solve all kinds of problems
just like that
and can tolerate with everything
till idk, the end of my time on Earth maybe.
i dont blame anybody or what,
faults all lie in me myself and i,
and im just thinking and thinking about it.
is it wrong to care and be concerned too much,
and being able to give chances to those around me?
i don't get backstabbed nor betrayed,
well maybe i did get them,
jus that i didn't know or didn't really bother
and still managed to give the culprit(s) chances.
but i always experience people around me getting hit by them,
then getting hurt ever-so-badly.
i wanna help,
but i withdraw cos i don't know how,
and i'll feel damn down cos they are down too,
cant anyone see?

i don't wanna be mean,
i don't like it.
though sometimes i am,
i don't really mean them.

maybe im jus drowning myself in self-pity,
but idk.
so someone jus come and enlighten me,
and try being me for once?
im probably jus ranting here,
trying to calm down then go sleep.
haha jus hope that everything goes fine.
and now im thinking,
what if i go MIA for a while?
will people start to get worried and all
cos they cant find someone to let out their problems to?
will people start to look for me high and low
cos they really needed me?
idk, i really don't know.

im thinking randomly now i know,
and maybe this post shouldn't even be posted
for there's no need for people to know how im feeling at all,
cos it's not interesting
and might not even be important at all.
well, again,
i might be pitying myself or whatnot (:

goodnight all.
and yea,
it's ANDREA'S BIRTHDAY (:
happy birthday babe (:

and uhm, not damai andrea, but TP's MOI's andrea (;