obviously im irritated by the imemm thing,
so i deleted it, yay :P

well...
coach really didnt make our day today,
neither did the weather i guess?
only rowed for half an hour
and a huge shower started,
so we couldnt practice our Ks jus now.
but our new paddles came in,
so it's one good thing that had happened today?
then coach forced brother and i to eat vegetables.
like wtf?
we hate hate HATE vege,
okay for me maybe not for certain types..
BUT,
he ruined our appetite for the day.
i dont even feel like having full dinner jus now..
and my tastebuds keep reminiscing the vege taste,
and it seriously sucks.
sighs, but we still cant blame him luh,
he's worried for our well-being after all,
and the whole team's like his kids, haha.

still rather exhausted, so didnt go for gym
after the rain and horrible lunch.
supposed to be sleeping
but i have no idea why im still typing away here?
hahahahahahaha.
i cant help it i guess.
been stoning most of the time after washing up,
like jus drained of all energy and mood.
i dont know why,
and i didnt want myself to be this way,
nor ask to be this way.
mood swings are really terrible sometimes,
and nobody would EVER know how im feeling (:
it's not something nice to be proud of either,
so that smiley was sarcastic (:

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i wanna fly,
fly high up into the sky,
and search for serenity and freedom.
i wanna run,
run fast and faster,
so that everything i dont like can jus go by like a gust of wind.
i wanna swim,
swim and glide underwater,
where most of the time i could really relax with all the fluid around me.
i wanna breathe,
breathe deeply and slowly,
in ensurance that my heart wont stop just yet,
and to know that i truly exist in this world.
i wanna search,
search high and low,
search for someone to hold in my arms,
and take my hands then take my breath away...


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im cold. brrr...

oh oh and here's something i came across yesterday..

it's like telling me,
"thank you for being considerate
by throwing your cigarette butt in here".
okay i know it's not clear and all,
but i dont have a proper camera,
how? haha...

right am now attacked by a bad headache again.
ciao.