right....
im posting two posts in one day.
so you can actually see how bored i am.
hahahhahah.

im really tired,
and feeling quite disturbed by
all sorts of sound and noise surrounding me.
dont ask me why,
cos i dont know why.
one look at my face and my friends
could tell that i've overworked my body.
so chrystal has this BIG yellow hairband
on her head to brighten herself up. (: yay.

i teared yesterday night,
LOL.
it feels weird typing this down,
cos i havent cried since...
the day we got out O' level results?
yea, but those were tears of happiness.
yesterday's were...
different.
i hate crying sometimes,
it makes me feel like im weak and useless.
i hate it, extremely. ):
but it aint healthy to not cry,
so im like... what the hell... argh.

man i cant wait for friday to come!
i'll be seeing all of my sec4 classmates,
cos mrs phee wants to give us a treat :D
why? cos the whole class passed english. LOL.

i really really really want my life back,
i want to feel really happy again.
i hate being all alone,
with nobody to talk to and all that.
when my friends leave,
i'll just sigh and my mood totally changes.
when my friends arrive,
my face would light up almost immediately,
and most of the time
they wouldnt realise how lonely
i'd felt without their presence...
i admit i have mood swings,
it's unpredictable and horrible,
and 'difficult to satisfy'
(i really dont know how to describe it...).
and only few people knows that.
now im wondering who does...
haha.
sometimes i contradict myself really badly.
as in,
i feel really down inside
but still put up a smile in my face.
i hate that habit of mine! grrr...
like now,
im feeling totally unhappy
but im still 'haha'-ing away.
sometimes this stupid habit of mine
confuses the shit out of me,
making me unable to decide
exactly how i am feeling right now.
that gives me another bad charcteristic:
being really undecisive at times.