im so sick of everything.
so sorry guys.
wanted to support you all but made things worst.
im a total failure, sucked.
jus wanna say sorry.
i'll try again,
but i know i'll nvr be myself.
dunnnnnnoooooooooo.

the chrystal who played netball has long gone.

im so under pressure.
dont know wad's the cause.
but jus under pressure.
i suck suck suck suck.
hate myself for demoralizing myself.
arghhh.

"...i cry silently, i cry inside of me.
i cry hopelessly, cos i know i'll nv
be myself again..."

im scared...
and im the prey of everything evil and bad.

chrystal's confidence has left her body and soul,
never coming back..

i hate this.
cant find where i belong.